Sisa Ruang Harapan

Tuhan, dalam keramaian ini, aku merindukanMu

rindu untuk menekuri ayat-ayatMu

rindu untuk berkali-kali mengalirkan kata cinta padaMu

 

Tuhan, dalam sepi ini, aku juga menginginkanMu

ingin Kau senantiasa mengisi kekosongan dalam hampa jiwaku

ingin agar Kau senantiasa memelukku erat

 

Tuhan, dalam galau ini, aku sangat menantiMu

hadir menghapus resah yang berbasah-basah

hadir menjadi labuhan pengharapanku

 

Tuhan, lama, tanpa kusadari langkahku perlahan menjauhiMu

ternyata bukan keriangan tak berkesudahan yang kudapat

tapi kecewa tak berujung yang menimbulkan penyesalan

 

Aku harap selalu masih ada ruang tersisa di sisiMu bagiku

agar tak patah arang jiwa ini

sebab tau selalu ada kasih sayang dan ampunanMu

 

Tuhan, selalu selalu dan selalu kata ini yang akan kuucapkan setelah perjalanan panjang banjir peluh dan air mata

Aku ingin kembali

Terimalah…

Amiin

 

 

 

To Dance With My Father Again

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around ‘til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved

If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never ever end
How I’d love, love, love
To dance with my father again

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me, yeah yeah..
Then finally make me do just what my moma said
Later that night when i want to sleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me

If i could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love, love
To dance with my father again

Sometimes I’d listen outside her door
And I’d hear how mama cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me

I know I’m praying for much too much
But could You send back the only man she loved
I know you don’t do it usually
But dear Lord she’s dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream

by Celine Dion

This song makes me remember the man in my life, Bapak. This song makes me cry.

I really miss him. The message in this lyric has a similarity with my story with him. Some days before he left me forever, I had danced with him for the first and the last time. Bapak. I’ll always pray for you. Hope Allah SWT will give us a chance to meet again in the most beautiful place ever had. aamiin